Running through my mind

This is not a proper post, I am simply jotting down the things that are running through the tracks of my brain.

I feel confused at every single stage of my life, confusion is a trait of my personality, I guess.

However I am determined to begin a new stage. A stage that has loads of potential to confuse me again and again.

But this time I feel determined to win over the Demon of Confusion that resides deep inside me.

Best of luck  “Me” :)


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A Suicider’s Plight


The night was fresh

with sparks of gray.

Life seemed impossible

yet it seemed worth,

worth to give it a try.

There was a turmoil,

a tornado grew wild.

not on the outskirts of the city,

but somewhere deep inside.

I did shout out for help.

I did my best, to not sink.

I looked for a little wood,

while my soul was drowning.

I asked for help,

but they overlooked.

I asked for help,

but they were booked.

They put me away,

 thinking it is just a phase.

They thought it is just dismay.

The night kept crawling

into my skin,

I saw the darkness creeping.

I was breathless and pale,

but with hope to live.

I cried out with pain

but t’was in vain…

I didn’t die of the corporeal pain,

but the pain of loneliness grabbed me.

I died, losing trust in solitary,

with lost faith in humanity.

Now that I don’t exist,

I hear people say,

‘she shouldn’t have done it,

she should have stayed’.

they say now,

if I had only asked for help,

if only I waited and then,

I would be still alive,

Living a better life.

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World – just a game

Something tickles down the nerves,

with a few shock like waves,

it drives the soul away.

Some say,

‘you are insane’,

Some act just fine,

while others cry away.

As the time goes by,

you see the light poles sway.

Noise, sounds like music,

while music, is a shrieking scream.

Glitter seems to be plain,

and pain feels too sweet.

No matter what you see,

no matter what you hear,

All that, you know is,

and all that you may,

the more you feel

the more you pain,

the world is just a game,

the world puts you to shame,

it is a game, with no escape,

A game, you ought to play.

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Brain Popsicle


No matter how brilliant your brain works, once in a while you do find it turn into a Popsicle. Freezed with splashes of colors running down your veins and you don’t remember even the silly things like names, dates and faces. The cold, sweeps through each of your neurons and makes you a living-dead for a few seconds, minutes and at times hours. All this time, your basic cognitive powers are lost.

Feeling lost in the world you know all about is, a common phenomenon with many and the same goes for me.

Image courtesy : iStock.

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Life in a metro – Kolkata

Kolkata metro is on the elevated stretch near ...

Kolkata metro is on the elevated stretch near Dumdum. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I know, the title sounds familiar to many but here, I am particularly referring to the Metro railways of Kolkata and not the movie ‘Life in a Metro‘.

Life in Kolkata is dependent on Metro railway. It is more or less the life line of the city and connects it from one end to the other. No, this is not ‘The news’ here.

Life of a woman, who travels in metro railways is a bit different from the men who travel in the same. A woman, who travels on a regular basis every day knows what it is to board a crowded train (similar to the local) at the wee hours of the day. Women here, have learnt it the hard way to shield themselves with bags and files, but by the time one reaches their destination the wrong is done.

There are women sections in every compartment but, when there is a huge crowd behind you, it becomes impossible to get in the women section that is already packed, and you are stuck, sandwiched  in the middle of men from all walks of life.

Hundreds of commuters feel encroached helplessly during the rush hours. Minus those few unwanted advances  and you have a pleasant journey all the way.

Kolkata is an amazing place and the metro railway is an addition made long back in order to make commuting from one part of the city to the other, a lot more easier and faster. If it was not for the metro railway, life would have been a lot more harsh in this city.

People please get a sense of humanity and treat women well, so that when a female family member of your’s is out in the open, you are a little less stressed up thinking about her well-being.


A few drapes ripped and you are raped!

I know, i was out of sight and didn’t post anything on this blog for a while. However I am back and yes I am distressed reading the news these days.

Grab a news paper from the coffee table or some other corner of our house and read, you are sure to find a couple of rape, abuse and molestation cases in there.

We are  here not to discuss or debate about the society and its functioning or if it is because of patriarchy or matriarchy. Whatever it is, the basic point here is ‘is it going to ever stop?’

We really don’t have an answer for this, right?

Some says, the laws should be even more strict, others point out to the dressing sense of the girls, a few shouts out about it inside their cozy shelters and seldom get the guts to talk about it in the open and the rest keeps mum.

If wearing skirts and shorts, gets a women raped and molested or if refusing one’s proposal gets her to these situations, then is a women safe at all. Each one of us knows this answer.

I don’t really understand, what kind of psyche can lead a man to brutally molest, rape or throw acid on women. Leave alone rights, what exactly makes them behave like butchers and treat her as though she has no life. I don’t understand what makes humans, inhumane to this extent.

since time immemorial, women have always been the bull’s eye, when it came to mental or physical torture  and it is high time our male counterparts understand what it is to be a women and walk on the streets and what it is to feel naked with a hundred pair of eyes ogling at our curves even when we are covered from neck to the toe. Treat us like humans, like your equal counterparts this is all we need and with this we are not talking about a few reservations in the system but we are talking about equality in society.

Help us to get rid of fear and insecurity that is gradually increasing in each one of us. Help us walk comfortably in our skin when on the streets without any fear of getting molested in the crowded streets and public transports like bus, train metro or of getting kidnapped and raped in a deserted piece of land.

Every mother out there, bring up your son and daughter as equals and stop discriminating. Teach your son to treat women the way they should be treated. Nothing changes if  the seeds of awareness are not sown at an early age.

Every man should know that there is nothing that makes a man superior to women in any way. Each one is the counterpart of the other and should respect each others existence.

If a women walks the streets in skirt, she is deliberately exposing and if a man walks in shorts, is he not? Why differentiate?

It is always good to find celebs like Farhan Akhtar  coming up with concepts like MARD – Men Against Rape and Discrimination and I hope that this campaign goes viral and this sickening illness of the society is eradicated as soon as possible. The campaign should reach the ears of all households in the rural areas, slums and all cities. A change in the mindset of people should begin somewhere at least.

So what? You can always be Gay!!

English: smile

English: smile (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

You don’t really like the ‘skin you are in’?, you are being bullied by others who seem to be just your opposite? You are stressed up by the ways the society treats you and others, who think just like you? Are you being neglected, getting depressed and stressed by the nuances of the society.

If you are facing problems like the ones mentioned above then, all you’ve got to do is, try to stay happy and gay! (I know, you were thinking of the other gay). No this post is not taking in consideration of any one particular type of people. I am talking in general and it goes the same for the minority, who are different. Each one of us have faced such situations, obviously levels differ but the basic remains the same.

You have just one life (nobody is sure of reincarnations), so why waste it thinking about what other’s think or do. It’s your life and you should be thinking about putting it to the best use. So forget about the rest and love yourself and do what you like. Ultimately you will find yourself loving each second that goes by.

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